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Sigh....
navigations are the words.
This is my own space to let it out. especially when theres no one to talk to that true understands or try to understand me.
+ Cheng Wee Chuan William
+ Yu Neng Primary School
+ Bedok South Secondary School
+ Ngee Ann Polytechnic
+ Republic of Singapore Navy
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+ 08/10/1989
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Friday, May 30, 2008
updates....
well again here i am...
a little update on things,
continued my work at SGH,
helping dave to troubleshoot the hundred over Access Point that aint working..
together with me is my classmate/colleague, Kinleong aka KL AKA gnoelnik
the whole day started with us getting to outram park mrt too early, sat there and dicussed things,
went over to SGH, met eric ou there, one of the IT support at SGH,
asked him for the keys and ladder, he say " i dun supply these things.
"have u got ur pass?"
"wad pass?" - wiliam
"you need a pass..." - eric
then he disappeared...
me and kl went out, gave him a call and clearify things,
he says" i dun haf time to entertain you all"
so we gave dave a call explain our situation,
he called eric and well seems like eric changed his mind about lending us keys and all that...
kinda 2 face dun u think?
anyway we went ahead with our combing of SGH..
today we did block 5,
block 5 zzz troublesome..
managed to fix some levels only,
the rest, its either an A ward, high dependancy ward or isolation ward...
problems encountered, AP FA interface downed, Radio down, POE hub down and the most common of all loose cable zzz...
finished our work bout 4 plus.
left for home,
met jason along the way to pick up my course Tee..
reached home kinda slack and try to get my test drive unlimited to work... retarded software zzz
thats about it for today..
things to take note,
tml bike lesson 4 at 8.30, need wakie up early...
reminder to self, morning call me fren till she wakes up,
think about my final report and presentation. plan wad to do with it,
send GC the whole lot of warrenty list..
hmm did i miss anything?
okie thats bout it for today.
a little bout previous days,
work work...
kinda sad though.. screwed up some things...
went SGH to do a fault call, then went down with dave to sentosa, TP tourism academy @ sentosa for another fault call..
that was when i screwed up..
left my things at the office, haiz disappointed. i really ahte that feeling of screwing up...
kinda spoil my mood for the day...
thank goodness for some frens managed to keep my mood on the brighter side,
next day started my adventure with kl at SGH, same same...
end of it i went down marina square to meet sonme classmate for her birthday,
we went to eat at yuki, had fun and all.. =P happy birthday ly =)
slack abit at esplanade, fell aslp..
then went home le...
hmm i wonder did i miss anything..., hmm i kinda miss sch hahaha
cant belief i said that...
hmm i guess i'll update further soon...
logging william
9:50 AM
Sunday, May 25, 2008
hey after such a long time here i am again..
well been really really busy lately with work and all that...
kinda sian of it also
wanna get back to sch hahaz
anyway a few updates in things, i'm finally passed lesson 3 in my bike lesson 5 more to go in total, and 2 more be4 i need a PDL..
14th june theory lesson 1 and 2 ( hahaz kinda remind of someone..same date also)
15th is lesson 3 and 4
then will see when rtt..
besides that, work wise, ACSI is clearing up le, soon it'll be all over..
and hopefully i get a new project after that..
a little bit on the sch side,
its half way thru my attachment.. 2 motnhs and 1 weeks more to go,
finished interim report le, SHIT... haben do my weekly report...
well i think i'll do it tml at office..
kinda remind me also,
tuesday i got a lab test in office... reminder to self, please prepare everything about STP
and things shld be alrite then...
mood wise lately beens improving drastically,
partly due to some people =)
well plus i'm starting to cant be bothered with alot of things le...
really tired of them...
plus not like wad ever i do will pretty much be appreciated anyway...
so leave them be let them do wad they wan and wad they think is rite.
a side note to my dear fren, really alot of things to tell ya.. so sry haben update my blog in a long long time, kinda miss u lotz here... hurry back and we shall go for supper and all...
hope ur doing fine there, juz a few months to go =)
well i'll call ya soon alrite...
so far while biking, i met a new fren,
a very interesting person, and only person i noe so far who got that much things in common with me lol
its really nice to meet ya =)
hope to see ya more often especailly after ya exams..
anyway.. well no matter how hard i try to me optimistic thigns always come crumblering down...
plus i really cant see a good end to things.. so yea...
but i'm not giving up hahaz, even though the end aint wad i see it to be...
i will still do my best in wad i do and juz move on ahead...
i'll be happy and all...
search for my owjn happiness and leave everythign else behind me
actuclly i dun relaly noe wad i talking but ya... anyway... moods pretty good too =)
wonder this time how long it'll last and i hope things progress and become something i pictured hahaz
logging william
hey to my dear fren...
kinda miss hearing ya lol tell me all bout ur things there soon alrite...
9:18 AM
Friday, May 16, 2008
hey guys and gals, ladies and gentlemen....
been a long while sinc ei last blog...
seriously lately i dun haf mood at all..
its juz crap really... things juz keep screwing up people juz making me feel more miserable then i ever tot i could be...
its juz horrible....
go home everyday stone my way to slp...
wake up everyday with no goal or meaning..
juz wake up get to work.,..
sit down in office... feels like a bore..
its juz darn boring...
things just been happening...
getting really sick of it...
so bad that i dun even wanna think about it...
mood change like instantly...
i look at some people.. i feel like they seem o be putting up a face...
but inside no one gives a shit anyway...
boring....
works getting really boring.. and i really juz wanna slp and not wake up...
recently juz updated with my interim report...
workmover nite to finish it.. till now 1 week pass the submission..
my LO didn;t even come to see us about it.. wth....
recently been talking to my dear fren... happy times sad times...
hopes she doing fine.. sometimes really got the temptation to juz call over and talk but then.. timing wise is always not really possible...
come back soon bring me go dessert =P
honestly out of all my frens only a handful really noe who am i...how i think how i feel...
most juz in front act good behind dun care...
wads the point of doing so much for people who dun even bother...
\haiz.. sick of it...
been also going for my cca also.. really nice to see this new group of year 1.. i haf a good feeling about this batch lets hope i;m not wrong...
this time we also haf a number of gals =P
train hard people....
get to noe ya all more soon...
zzz tired.. dun feel like tlaking..
juz feel like locking myself somehwere cool and dark and juz lay there...
zzz
logging
william
12:29 AM
Monday, May 12, 2008
back to update again, after much demand...
well honestly life now is quite rocky... up and down...
constantly changing moods...
at times feeling depress, at time happy, at times.. feeling insane.. and agitated...
seriously dunno wad is happening...
anyway been busy with work work and work...
yesterday finished a 40 page report...
went to couple of on site work...
tagging and lab test at office...
life is a bore honestly....
boring......
hoenstly i dunnow ad to write... been wanting to write for a long time now...
but at the moment abit moody... then really dunno wad i shld even update here....
kinda feel miserable...
especialy after some things i said.. things i nv tot i could express out inw ords..
things that no one around me knew that i was going thru and feeling...
a a simple thing of runnign away fromt he facts of this world actuclly can causeso much hell...
in the long run...
slowly u lose ur self, ur beliefs, ur principle, the thigns that u once trust... slowly losing ur sanity...
life jus simply become abit meaningless, without purpose, juz an empty shell...
wake up to no purpose, slep to no dream and goal...
juz nitemares at most..
life isn;t bad by itself... juz it doesn;t fel rite at all.. theres juz things stuck in me somewhere that i dun even noe...
everytime that happens.. ya juz feel like cutting urselof up to find it...
honestly feeling damn rediculous... but then even though wadever i think here i noe most are not rite.. but then it feels rite....
i look around me... who acutclly bothers about a person like me?
i got tones of frens but who really treat me as one honestly...
i give so much to people... helping listening anjd all that... but then hoenstly who am i to them...
part of me noes that that is not true... but another is beliefing it...
seriously i dunno wad i;m talking ... nvm i shall not continue else i feel worst...
anyway some things i really wanna say to my dear fren so far away...
hey dun angry le okie.. =) smile more.. dun let them ruin ur day.
if they bully u tell me i settle them for u tsk tsk..
remember take good care of urself...
no matter wad i;m going thru.. or wad i;ll wait for ya return and we shall hang out alrite!!
dunc are dessert or drink =P anything...
hahaz...
so far 2 months... liao...
2 months of no haf u around my hp quite silence =p
wellya take care of urself alrite...
miss ya lotz...
so sry if all this abit short or wad... but well its all from the bottom of my heart
juz a little not that good at the moment... so sry...,
zzz i;m going insane zzz
i shall end... tired and shoulder hurting
logging william
9:42 AM
Sunday, May 04, 2008
update update....
things been ok ok....
not good not bad...
as for work wise...
work is pretty okie... also...
juz.. kinda getting abit sian of it...
really tired too...
nvm 3 more month!! it'll be over soon....
lets start wif yesterday...
went over frens 21st birthday... chalet.. close to 70 people..
rather grand birthday..
it was pretty fun and all..
at some point i kinda had some change in mood...
but aint really that obvious.. so thats a good thing.. dun wan to ruin anything for anyone at an occasion like tis...
drank abit.. rather alot actuclly but then compared tot he rest is a bit le...
even one whole mouthfl of black label once...
then went cine eat.. then walk around do crazy things and head home...
today damn tired....
still is.... haiz sian.. at the moment.. abit moody again...
honestly been really bad on the mood lately.. really.. bad...
see things happening before.. happening on me... and stuff like that.. made me juz feel like crap...
getting ignored... getting put aside...
the feeling juz sux..
honestly i feel like the least important person alife... although i noe there are people who cares about me... least i hope...
haiz.. nvm.. lets juz avoid this topic totally....
i nv seem to be able to relate this to anyone at all anyway...
anyway....
been starting to talk to my dear fren over the phone and all that.. really happy =0
finally noe how to call her le...
its really nice to hear from ehr again...
really really missed her alotz...
hopes shes well there... =) will wait eagerly for ur return....
hahaz no haf u here.. feels like missing something in singapore...
hahaz no more supper no more sinful cakes and dessert... lol
hoenstly now a days everytime i eat dessert.. u the first thing that came to my mind....
then i'll start smiling like mad liddat... well i guess simple things become more precious when the person aint around... so people do learn to appreciate the person when they are around hahaz...
hmmm now a days even drinking also think about ya lol... ya like my drinking khaki liao.. =P
now go drink like no one go wif me or no feeling or wad...
but anyway also been busy wif work and all...
work.. plus all this emotional thingy going on... draining me like nuts... tired argh... aarrgghhh
hahaz when ya come back lets go sing k(i shall go learn more song till ya comes back LOL), drink(flaming lamboghini, waterfall, absinthe, cosmopolitian), play mahjiong(lol muz teach me all the tai and all that.. still abit blur)
well got alot of thing wanna tell u about.. good things bad things.. but then like ya not around hard to say.. hahaz also dun wan give ya burden with all my things hahaz... ya muz take care of urself there, and dun worry bout me alrite.. no matter wad i will make sure i'm in one piece de.. wont let all those tot of putting myself in harms way get to me de =P
k lah i think i wirte till here le...
miss ya lotz...come back fast fast alrite...!!!
william
(hmmm followed ur advice of talking to ya thru my blog LOL)
9:02 AM